What is...

Some people says that love needs

Passion
Understanding
Trust

But then i'll add another to the list

Sharing dreams..when u shared the same dreams with someone means u wanna be with tat special someone to live ur dreams..share your dreams with someone u love..

Well that just me..i believe in lots of thing but mostly in love

Share the love..

P/s - follow your heart..share the love..

Sayang by shae

Sayang apa khabar dengan mu
Di sini ku merindukan kamu
Ku harap cinta mu takkan berubah
Kerna di sini ku tetap untukmu

Sayang apa khabar dengan mu
Cobalah kamu telepon diriku
Ku rindu dengar suara indahmu
Kerna dirimulah semangat hidupku

Sayang dengarlah permintaan ku
Jangan ragu kan cintaku
Sayang percayalah apa kataku
Kerna ku sayang kamu

Sayang dengarlah permintaanku
Jaga hatimu untukku
Sayang dengarlah bisikan hatiku
Kerna ku sayang kamu

Stuck

Yesterday..a friend is having relationship problems

the main issue is the other person is having a 'stuck' relationship with the ex..huhu

well, no one wanna life with a third person watching, monitoring each and every step..that is definitely not cool..imagine having meal on the same table with the ex..it must have been so cold..no mushy2 cute cuddling manje2 lor..just plain cold just because u dun wanna hurt the other person feeling..not the kind of relationship anyone wud stand for long

and my friend just proved me rite..break off after a week..lalalalalaa..

bottom line is, if u know ur stuck in the previous relationship or there is still 'relationship' between u and ur ex dun dare to start a new one with anyone.. u'll end up hurting not only people around u but also urself.

the hurting and time spend after that does not worth it..trust me..

so, all and all stay if u want to..move on if u dun..just dun get stuck in between..

peace..nite..

p/s - cupcakes..i'm officially dislikes them..ahahahaa.. ;)

Sick

been sick for 3 days now..

started with high fever & throw up on Saturdays

followed by fever & diarrhea on Sundays

and then yesterday non stop throw up episode with headache..

i though DEMC will be my hotel this week..hadoii..

i got like 6 type of medicine right now..feel like an old lady with cane..ahahaa..

huhu..Alhamdulillah today pretty ok 

well it cud have been worst..

but still the thought of food make me feel sick..

not eating making me worst..

i just hope its not stomach ulcer..

i smell like puke now..lol 

p/s - kiss with puke..want some? 

 

u

i wish u were here with me right now..

i wish we were together..

i wish we will never be apart..

well i wish for a lot of thing..

but i pray everyday for 'our' day..

i missed you..very much

p/s - sleepy..hugs pls

Donor Pledger

hey..there's an online registration nowadays..

http://www.agiftoflife.gov.my/register.php

Please consult your parents / buah ati / brother & sister before u register ok?

P/s -Organ Donor needed..a new heart.. :)

the world

Honestly..

The world is harsh..

Life is cruel..

But then u know one thing for sure..

U'll always have my heart..

U'll always be the one..

Love X0X0

Sungkar Cinta Kita Teuku Wisnu ft. Shireen

Just For U..

Inilah aku apa adanya
Yang ingin membuatmu bahagia
Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Sesempurna cintaku padamu

Ini cintaku apa adanya
Yang ingin selalu di sampingmu
Ku tahu semua tiada yg sempurna
Di bawah kolong langit ini

Jalan kita masih panjang
Ku ingin kau selalu disini

Biar cinta kita tumbuh harum mewangi
Dan dunia menjadi saksinya
Untuk apa kita membuang-buang waktu
Dengan kata kata perpisahan

Demi cinta kita aku akan menjaga
Cinta kita yg telah kita bina
Walau hari terus berganti hari lagi
Cinta kita abadi selamanya

Jalan kita masih panjang
Ku ingin kau selalu disini

Biar cinta kita tumbuh harum mewangi
Dan dunia menjadi saksinya
Untuk apa kita membuang-buang waktu
Dengan kata kata perpisahan

Demi cinta kita aku akan menjaga
Cinta kita yg telah kita bina
Walau hari terus berganti hari lagi
Cinta kita abadi selamanya

p/s - i miss u..x0x0

E.M.O

feeling very tense n emotional..

have to buck-up..raise up my game!!!!

hiyahhhhhh...

p/s - imy..

Disappointment

hey..its been a while..been busy with work and studies and life..and..watever..hehe..

anyway..i just have to write today.its actually my very own disappointment with the current level of hockey in Malaysia.. .its not like we are not improving, we have, but there's been hear say which i finally got the chance to looked at it with my own eyes (and it was true..not just hear say anymore)..well its not new issues..malaysian hockey (woman especially) mixed up with too many hands and ideas = hancurrrr

this new story i heard last week..there are one particular university trying hard to get the attention..lol..i guess they haven't succeed in anything else before.so they are pushing their name thru..well pushing their athletes to be included in the national team competing internationally..

well..the thing is im not really disappointed at the university as i understand it is essential to make sure our name appear to the top management such as KPT. but then wat i am disappointed about is the means they used to make sure their athletes got into the team..me as a hockey player knows for sure there are way better players than this university players..i dun even want to compare them with my team..i know for sure there are at least 5 more national or former national or former national junior athletes in other universities excluding my own team..for wat ever reason these university athletes were chosen (which i dun c relevant) as they are representing the nation..MALAYSIA..!

being beaten with thailand is one thing but at least wat they can do is bringing hockey national team to another level..why cant they at least bring the best player this country have and prepare the team properly..grown the team not main tangkap muat..adehh..then claim its the best achievement or better achievement than before?? seriously in know the way they will present this so called achievement..been to their meeting before.. we cud have at least reach the final in that tournament then raise more money to build up our own team later on..silly decision which in long run will hurt the national team fund..lalalalala..ketok pale kat dinding sket..

anyway..who am i to tell these people to think twice before making such decision..they already fill their eyes with current glory..yeah right 2nd runners up kot? but then what will happen in the long run..? will ever, i repeat ever the womens Malaysian National team raised their fund to make proper planning for the development or maybe even for the current national athletes to be send abroad for test match or other tournament? sigh...its been more than 15years i've involve directly and indirectly to hockey in Malaysia and there is no yearly national league for womens team..just Raja Noorashikin Cup..tats it. one cup a year and u had ur finger crossed there will be more talented players..sigh again..

to those involve in National Malaysian team i wish go0d luck and all the best..just please try not to only think about u..urself..and ur tummy..think about our nation pride, our beloved Malaysia..

Salam....

p/s - nasi suda jadi kanji..tara guna mau bebel pnjg2..owh, bnyak pnjg ini beras..! LOL :p




 

boredd..

what a day..bored n hottt..wallawey..air conditioner not functioning..bangang..its been a few month..demn!

so wat else to do other than listening to music..n smp pening jgk dgr lagu neh, ahaha..

enjoy!

eh lupe..wanna go to Legoland...lets jom, pleeaaasee..anyone? *sigh*

Lirik Lagu : Judika - Aku Yang Tersakiti

Pernahkah kau merasa jarak antara kita

Kini semakin terasa setelah kau kenal dia

Aku tiada percaya teganya kau putuskan

Indahnya cinta kita yang tak ingin ku akhiri

Kau pergi tinggalkanku

Tak pernahkah kau sadari akulah yang kau sakiti

Engkau pergi dengan janjimu yang telah kau ingkari

Oh tuhan tolonglah aku hapuskan rasa cintaku

Aku pun ingin bahagia walau tak bersama dia

Memang takkan mudah bagiku tuk lupakan segalanya

Aku pergi untuk dia

Tak pernahkah kau sadari akulah yang kau sakiti

Engkau pergi dengan janjimu yang telah kau ingkari

Oh tuhan tolonglah aku hapuskan rasa cintaku

Aku pun ingin bahagia walau tak bersama dia

(walau tak bersama dia)

Oh tuhan tolonglah aku hapuskan rasa cintaku

Aku pun ingin bahagia walau tak bersama dia

p/s - meski jejak pisah kan kita, cinta kan bawa kembali...pada ku..! another song..sok pulak, hehe..

lil thing...

Sumtimes I wonder

When the smallest lil thing can make u smile..does it means sumthing?
Well....

My heart skips a beat when u do this small lil thing..

Imy..

Goodbye Dreams..

Lirik Lagu Harapan - Hyper Act

Bicara mimpi itu
Mengheret ku ke dasar
Gelap tangannya menggapai tangan ku
Dan munculnya dirimu
Dipinggir laman itu
Hangatmu menyambut ku kembali,

Dan ku mengerti,
Mengapa masih berdiri,
Hadirnya siang berteman mentari,
Dan ku bersama,
Bintang malam mu mencari kasih ku Ooo

Harapan
Harapan menjadi layu
Ingin ku bahgia bersama
Menjadi kenangan
Memburu impian masa kita
Selamanya

Dan angin kan memanggil
Bagai ada musafir
Hadirnya pergi tiada berjanji
Mungkin seketika
Ku merasa cintanya
Bagai dibelai mimpi sempurna

Dan taman ini
Tak bererti dan bersemi
Tiada indah tanpamu disini
Dan ku jejaki
Walaupun hanya secebis kasihmu Ooo

Harapan
Harapan menjadi layu
Ingin ku bahgia bersama
Menjadi kenangan
Memburu impian masa kita
Selamanya

Solo. C/O

Hati ku..
Meratap setinggi gunung
Pasti ku mencari bintangnya
Menjadi cahaya
Menyinar impian hidup kita
Selamanya

p/s - today is the day where i've let go of my dreams and start living in reality..

just a 'smooch' gud nite

its almost 12am..
and i missed u..

Just a kiss..

nites!

Teman Pengganti - black feat malique

Ketawa bersama
Menangis bersama
Ku bersumpah harap kita
Mati pun bersama
Sejak dua menjak iniMakin kerap ku diganggu visi
Bila celik, juga bila mimpi
Aku nampak kau, tapi bukan aku yang di sisi
Dia membelaimu dengan izin dan permisi
Sentuhan katanya semuanya kau iakan
Sentuhan jari kau diamkan dan biarkan
Aku redha walau tidak ku damba
Walau hampa semuanya dah dijangka
Beberapa purnama dulu cinta bertahta
Kenangan dibina kita indah belaka
Ketawa bersama, menangis bersama
Ku bersumpah harap kita mati pun bersama
Namun hakikatnya, bukan mudah
Aku sembunyikan gulana-gundah
Segalanya kan berubah
Dengarkan apa yang ku mahu luah
*Rahsia ini
Telah lama ku pendamkan
Tiba masanya
Segala-galanya
Ku ceritakan
Aku kan pergi
Pergi ku tak akan kembali
Tiba masanya
Kau cari teman pengganti
Dalam dunia yang maya, prejudis dan bias
Kita tak terlepas dari terkena tempias
Rimas, ditindas, sembunyi dalam puisi dan kias
Tidak kau bidas, tak berpaling walau sekilas
Hanya kau yang tahu kodeksku yang kompleks
Dalam disleksia cuba kekal dalam konteks
Bila dunia seolah tak memahami
Kau sudi selami, dalami dan mengalami
Setia mendengar, sentiasa hadir
Ingat setiap ulangtahun, setiap hari lahir
Tiba pagi Syawal, kaulah yang terawal
Syawal yang terakhir ini pasti rasa janggal
70 000 hijab harus ku singkap
Ku sorok kitab balik tingkap penjara hinggap
Dalam diam ada, seorang yang ku puja
Kau teristimewa tapi dia yang sempurna
Sejak dua menjak ini, ku mencari fungsi kewujudan
Dalam persekitaran yang penuh kejumudan
Terperangkap dalam jasad, ku keliru
Mujur ada kau si peneutralisasi pilu
Namun aku tetap murung, berkurung
Tubuh makin susut, menunggu tarikh luput
Komplikasi di halaman rusuk kiri
Makin sukar nak bernafas, nak bergerak, nak berdiri
Lagu ini yang terakhir aku sajikan
Kalau rindu nanti bolehlah kau nyanyikan
Jaga diri, jangan makan hati
Yang patah kan tumbuh, yang hilang kan berganti
Bilik dah ku kemas, katil dah ku rapi
Cincin, kunci, dompet dalam laci
Ada sikit wang, itu saja baki
Moga-moga cukup untuk majlis itu nanti
Aku kan pergi
Bertemu kekasih abadi
Tiba masanya
Kau cari teman pengganti

p/s - just a song..gd nite, sweet dreams..

Something to think about..

once upon a time..we were besties..best friends

and now ur acting like we dun even care..

u assume

that we judged u..

that we choose side..

that we were flawless..

that we remain just fine..

that things a normal..

that u were not important..

well, BFF..this is wat u shud know

- we didnt judged because we're not in ur shoe

- we didnt choose a side because we're already by ur side

- we weren't perfect, non of us are

- we're not normal bcause u weren't here

- we missed u because u were important

we're might not be the best friend u needed..but we do love u..doesn't matter wat happened, how things turn out to be..we are BFF. hope sumday u'll realized that we are still standing here for you..

Take Care now..

p/s - life might be complicated but friendship doesn't need to b this complicated..sigh..so, watever..

a loss

I collected all my strength just to create this post...Yesterday morning, i loss a friend..a dear friend. He had an accident at Alor Gajah, on his way back to SSTMI or formally known as SSBP where he worked as teacher and hockey coach..

He's someone i knew back in SSBP, we were schoolmates..but during that time we were the first batch to register at SSBP..there's only about a dozen boys and half a dozen girls that time..hehe..it was fun and scary since the school was so big n new.. the 2nd batch came in after a couple of weeks, so basically all of us know each other well before the 2nd batch came..

After i heard about him yesterday, i felt the loss eventhou i havent seen him for almost a year..i try to recall moments in SSBP and after all i cud remember of him is how he always smile everyday, hardly see him being serious..then i still cud hear his voice "Azan" everyday at SSBP Surau..he had a unique voice, very calming..
i didnt know that he's married and have a lil prince..huhu..i feel sorry for his family. i kinda regret that i didnt know more bout him these days since we were close before..i hope his wife and kids will be ok..that nite i waited to hear news about the accident in the 'TV3 news' at 8pm..n as soon as i saw the visual of him on the road, with his blood..i started to cry. its so sad to see sumone u know gone just like that..well Allah SWT love him more....

here's a link to his story in the news paper:
http://www.hmetro.com.my/articles/Rempuhlorimelintang/Article
http://www.sinarharian.com.my/semasa/lori-dirempuh-3-kali-guru-antara-maut-1.79495

i know im not the only one who feel this loss, most of our friends feels it too.. yesterday i didnt only loss a friend, i loss a brother..and Abg Fakh, u will be missed..Al-Fatihah..

p/s - drive safely peeps..b safe..

M.A.J.O.K

lalalalala..its been a while since my last post, almost two weeks ago..ngehngehngeh..happy holiday is over..huhu..tomorrow a new advanture will begin..working lor, wat else? da!

anyways, my Hari Raya Aidil Fitri holiday was a blast..full with food and zzzZZzzz..muahahaha..tats all i did all day long, and it feel so goo000ooodd...kekekekee..

then i came back to my S.A home..kemas umah sket..then went lepaking n movies marathon (the expandables 2 - hilarious n fun then followed by total recall - nice but since it was back to back im kinda sleeepyy..heheee)

so then i got M.A.J.O.K...lalalaalalaa..then i treat myself with a new pinky..my new shyang! muaaaghss..muaghss..new gadjet! ahahaa..i been wanting to spend for new lappy for quite sumtime so today i finally buy my own lappy..yeay!!! a treat lepas M.A.J.O.K..muahahah...gelak jahat byk2..

so here's a quote after M.A.J.O.K :



hehee..thanks to my cu n pakcu for the time spend jalan2 searching for my pinky..

p/s - singing Jeripah....nah amik lirik skali, muahaha...

Sayangku, aku pasti
Kau sebahagianku
Sayangku, aku yakin
Takdir kita bertemu

Biarkan semua berlalu
All i know i’ll always have you
Pengganti tempat mengadu
Selamanya, engkaulah.. hanya

Sayangku, aku pasti
Takdir kita bertemu
Biarkan semua berlalu
All i know i’ll always have you
Pengganti tempat mengadu
Selamanya, engkaulah

Biarkan semua berlalu
All i know i always have you
Pengganti tempat mengadu
Selamanya, engkaulah.. hanya

Selama-lamanya
Selamanya

Bored..

today is my last day at work..tomorrow coootiii already, hehee..Penang here i come!!!! huhu..all i cud think about is just i wanna go home..so today here's sumthing, a reminder for everyone including me.. :)

sumtimes we just forget how much a person worth until we lose them..x0x0

p/s - Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir & batin..

Learning

So..im learning..will try harder to understand..to learn more..
Enjoy...



After a while you learn
The subtle difference between
Holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning
And company doesn’t always mean security.

And you begin to learn
That kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes ahead
With the grace of a woman
Not the grief of a child

And you learn
To build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow’s ground is
Too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way
Of falling down in mid flight

After a while you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden
And decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers

And you learn
That you really can endure
That you are really strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and you learn
With every good bye you learn.

Veronica A. Shoffstall

Quotes of the day

‎”I’ve lived long enough to know that most of the things I worried about never happened, that most of the things I felt bad about turned out to be for the better, and that most of the things I hoped would stay the same couldn’t stay the same if they wanted to, because change is the Process of Life Itself.” -Neale Donald Walsch

Nite2..

Marriage

These days couple of my friends told me bout their marriage..
They just divorced their wifey..adoiyai
And one of them have only been married for few months..just imagine how tats make me feel.

Honestly,this is how i feel..Im scare of marriage..does marriage even last these days? Looking around, i realized most of my friends are having marriage problem. It makes me wonder, wat have gone wrong? This doesnt seems real..its like watching telenovela on tv3, demn..before this, i dun think our parents face these thing..divorce percentage are getting higher nowadays..the question is y?

Is this happened because of our level of stress is increasing these days? Or because women believe in their rights to speak out their opinion? Or because of our expectation are increasing,higher and higher each days?

Well,i have no answer..(mls mau cari jwpan jgk), but from where i see things and from wat my friends told me its basically because of unfulfill desire or needs..a person desire or needs from their partner vary..

For example, i need sumone who always care about me..constantly check on me.which might not be wat u need..i desire for sumone who can give me opinion not sumone who decide for me..sumone else might want the opposite..

So moral of the story, each n everyone of us shud master one thing and one thing only..the ability to understand wat our partner needs n desire..if u fulfill these they will be happy..happy partner = happy marriage. Which is a department where mens always failed..lalalaa..jgn mrh ey, but its kinda true..

Apart from tat..I feel sad. It seems like women is the cause of the problem..we want so much, we expect too much and we desire too much..is tat the case? I dunno..and i wont judge. But to me communicate what u want, dun expect men to understand..they wont believe me..u have to tell them. They wont listen in the beginning, but use other method to buried those thought in their brains..ladies, come on use ur imagination n creativity..hehee..

Marriage is hard work..n life is sumthin u cant predict or forecast..hehe..so redha n doa for the besh..

P/s-gd luck ladies.. ;)

27

Rite now im officially 27y.o

Hehe..so old oledy meh..

Wat to do..im 27 y.o and still so far away from wat i wanna be..

But Alhamdulillah im pretty happy with my life so far..

Yes i have my ups and down..well, who doesn't,aite?

I realized i've miss a few dreams..

Which i cant have from where i stand aite now..huhu

1. Didnt get to represent malaysia in hockey..i throw tat dream so far away when i continue my studies in Arau before..adeh, still thinks i cud have done better..shud have struggle more..

2. Get degree in physioterapy..another set back, but all n all i still glad i decided to work first, i might not b where i am rite now if i continue studies for my degree..not my 'rezeki'

So other than these two thing i still can fight, can struggle, can strive for it..

From where i c things rite now, Allah got better plan for me..so i'll keep my head up high..doa for the besh n believe sumday i cud look back n smile..

P/s- life doesnt always end up the way we plan but all the set back doesnt mean we have failed..its simply shows there are millions possibility in life! ;)

Forward

Lets live without fear..

 

im progressing.. ;)

Baby steps..

Im taking baby steps..

Im stepping forward..

Not going back where i am before..

Slow progress is progress..

Better than no progress kot..

Ngee..

I will b better..

At least i'll try..

I'll fight with all i got..

I might b hurt..

I might bleed..

But i'll give my all..

I'll fight!

So baby steps..

Moving forward..

P/s- Im striving for progress not perfection..im not perfect..

Aku, kau & dia - shila amzah

Nafasmu bermulanya langkahku
Menghembus kata dari hatiku
Dimana takdir ini menyatukan kau dan dia
Dalam hati yang mencari cinta

[Chorus]
Usah kau tangisi perpisahan
Aku merasai cinta
Aku kau dia bahagia rasa
Bersatu dalam cinta yang membara
Biar sakit ku kerna cinta
Ternyata untuk yang sempurna

Berat jua rasa bersatu
Walaupun sedar akan menghilang
Dimana takdir ini memisah kau dan aku
Hanya cinta kekal yang ku harapkan

Usah kau tangisi perpisahan
Aku merasai cinta
Aku kau dia bahagia rasa
Bersatu dalam cinta yang membara
Biar sakit ku kerna cinta
Ternyata untuk yang sempurna

Dunia ini hanya tuk sementara saja
Pasti ada kenangan kita berdua
Namun hati tak pernah mengharapkan
Kerna ku tau dirimu kini mencintainya

Biar sakit ku kerna cinta
Bahagia aku kau dan dia

Aku kau dia bahagia rasa
Bersatu dalam cinta yang membara
Ohh.. biar sakit ku kerna cinta
Bahagia aku kau dan dia

P/s- layan tis song..smp aidil pon da leh nyanyi,masalah x? ahahaaa...

Wish list

Gonna b 27 y.o this year..so here are my wish list!


1. Dinner n lepaking with my bff

2. Vacatioooonnnnnn with my...hehee..beaches

3. T-race instead i got t-touch, lalalalalaa

4. Salomon shoe

5. Head rest for baby neo ensom..

6. PullnBear - orange! Orange! Orange!

7. 1pint peanut butter baskinR..yummy,tp nt moks2 how? Ooooowwhh..nak jgk!

8. Iced caramel macchiato!

9. You Coupon - a ticket where i can use it..if i need u, i just use the ticket n u have to b here for me..no matter wat time, wat date, wat situation..bole? Hahahaa...

10. TT - is it too much to ask for? Hikhikhik...

Dessertt

Today im cooking dessert again..

Yeay..!

Pengat pisang..

I never, i repeat, never cook tis myself

Mama or mumy used to cook for me..

Hehee...

Anyway, i loike it!

Lalalala..gumuk la

Dreams

These days i keep on having the same dreams..

Over and over again..

And its not u..

Which is painful..

Im not ready to loose u..

Not now..not ever..

So i pray everyday, everynite..

If we not meant to b..

I wish u'll b happy..

....


P/s- heart pls b strong..

Law of attraction

Tonite i feel like discussing sumthing i've been holding back for sumtimes..hehe..been busy but these Blessed month Ramadhan i'm quite free..i loike it!

Anyway the topic is law of attraction..wat actually atrract us to another person?some say its a mystery, well its actually just common sense which sumhow we're too overwhelmed by our own feeling we lost our sense (or soo..i belive, anyway tis is my blog so it doesnt matter..hehe)

Everyone have a list of characteristic of sumone we like..tats y sumhow we end up with a person with the same or a few same character all the time. For example im always attracted to sumone taller than me with chinese look face. Myb tats included in my subconsciuos list..we actually cud figure out wat is in our list. But then tat is the first part only..the physical appearance. Tall, short, blond, cute, sexy, 6pac..lol..n the list goes...

The second part is the personality..bubbly, independent, needy,control freak, quite..this is where the attraction goes more intense..we got closer to the "attraction" and then comes the part where we start knowing more about each other. Wat we like, for example i love playing games on my ipad..hehe..n sumone might find tat interesting or not..lol..we attracted to someone who loves to read because we ourself didnt have time to do tat. Its usually an act tat compensate us..make us feel complete. For me i noe im attracted to sumone who love to looked for information, do research..just because i cant..hehe..And most of the time this is the time where wesaid.."owh, i loike tat too"..admitting the same interest making the attraction grows stronger..

But of course the attraction only get stronger when u spend more time nourishing it..and some researcher says it took 3 years for us to b remaining in this state..the attraction state. After 3 years (might be lessssss) tats the time where we started to lost interest..lost the attraction. This is where we started to hear 'Goodbyes'..

So here come the big question..how to keep the attraction alive? Well, if u google it u'll find a lot of advice on doing new things together, finding new experiences..all and all it takes two to tango..u'll first need the "attraction" to dance with u..hehe..i'll suggest nothing since im learning the art myself..but all and all SPEND MORE TIME TOGETHER..tats wats important..to me i guess..

P/s- nites2..hugs n kisses

Same..

Its been a while since my last post..been busy..everywhere..

Topic of the day..when u speak the same language with ur partner.

I came accross tis topic when I watch a couple talk the other day n they keep finishing each other sentences. Its like they understand each other, have a secret way of communicating..they can read each other mind. It was sweet, cute and make jelous of them.

My problem with relationship..or the way i believe it was the main problem was communication. We somehow tend to assume too much without discussing the matter..we assume and decide, then one day realized we assume wrong..

How do we communicate well when we hide all our feeling?when we dont speak up nor open up to the other person? Well, it is essential to be able to talk about anythin and everythin to one person u feel comfortable with..

Stop asssuming..start communicating..

p/s- lets move on..stop wasting time ;)

Lirik Lagu Shila Amzah – Déjà Vu (Lagu Tema Filem Aku, Kau & Dia )

Aku bukan lemah tanpa cinta
Hanya tidak mampu sendiri tanpanya
Biarkan aku menangis kerna derita

Dia hadir mengubatkan rindu
Mengajarkan aku erti cinta
Namun semua tidak seindah ku sangka

( Chorus )
Dialah yang aku inginkan
Dia cinta yang kudambakan
Namun semua hanya tinggal mimpi
Terpisahnya cinta

Aku harus melupakannya
Aku harus memadam rasa
Namun hati tidak pernah mampu
Melepas kau pergi

( Ulang chorus )

Setelah sedar dari mimpi
Harus ku terus hidup tanpamu
Kini ku pasrah segalanya
Tentang cinta

Lagu : Sharon Paul
Lirik : Imillya Irwani

Different

Life can change a person into sumthin or sumonelse..true enough

We can looked at life from various perspective & dependin on which view ur seeing ur life can in fact change u..

For example if i looked at life as a coward then i might sees life as frightening, terrible and scary

Whereas if i took a different stand and b brave i might sees life as promising, colourful n joyful..

Its all about where u put ur feet n wat u decide wat u want..

Today i know i shud take a stand..i shud put my feet on the ground that i want..

But all i cud think of was the lyric from this song:

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall

I realize im not brave enough..not yet..wud i ever b brave? I myself wonder..but then the song goes:

But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer..

I know im looking at u everytime i needed the strength..& i guess its not impossible to take a lil step..one at a time..as long as we'll end up where we wanna be right? I know where i wanna b..i hope u too know where u wanna b.. :)

P/s - Im holding on my 'sumday' & if tis doesn't worked out i believe we're meant for sumthin better..xoxo

things i wanna do with u..

1. Lie all day in bed
2. Sit on the beach n say nothing
3. Hold ur hand all day
4. Eat ice cream together (HagenDazz - pergh, xnak mahal lak kn? ahaha..anykind of ice cream will do lorh..lol)
5. Play paintball together..hehe..
6. Go hiking anywhere..haven't done tis with anyone yet actually
7. or one more thing i wanna do with U is ice skating..ahahah..too scared to try but of U were there i'll b ok..
8. Watch u do ur work all day
9. ...do nothing n look at each other
10. watch sunrise & sunset together..

These are a few thing i wanna do with U..but since i haven't got any U yet i'll keep my list goin on & on & on..

till then...

p/s - sleepy n mild headache..need stronger drugs! Lol..

Majnun

Today i got nothing to say so how bout a song instead?

Like this song..

Majnun-Hazama

Di puncak bukit ku bina kubu
Beratapkan dedaun rimba
Melihat penjara kamarmu dari jauh
Bermulai air mata hancur luluh hatiku

Di puncak bukit kukenang semula
Hari kita mesra melakar nama
Saat pertama bibirku melontarkan namamu
Terpukau matamu gila kau buatku

Hanya namamu nyanyian angin menjadi udara
Hanya namamu bagai darah mengalir ke jantung
Kerana kamu aku hilang
Aku hilang akal terjadi gila, gila

Mereka ketawa melihat aku membawa diri ke sini
Namun malam ini saja yang dapat di erti
Kini cuma burung-burung mendengar laguku
Semua impian dan harapan terkubur

Bila ku kenang semula
Berita diterima teriak namanya
Hari tanganmu dijanjikan padaku
Pastinya semakin gila kau buatku

Hanya namamu nyanyian angin menjadi udara
Hanya namamu bagai darah mengalir ke jantung
Kerana kamu aku hilang
Aku hilang akal terjadi gila, gila
Apalah dosaku yang dimakan waktu
Di halangi dari mendampingimu
Hingga masa engkau hulurkan nyawa
Menyebut namaku dinafas terakhir

Hanya namamu nyanyian angin mnjadi udara
Hanya namamu bagai darah mengalir ke jantung
Kerana kamu aku hilang, aku hilang akal
Sayangku Laila Laila Laila Laila

Kerana kamu aku hilang
Aku hilang akal terjadi gila, gila
Biar terdampar ku tidur disebelahmu untuk sementara
Menanti bungaku bangun dari pusara


P/s- gila = is a common condition when ur in love, its the moment u stop thinkin using ur brain n started to use ur heart instead..lol!

Headache

..my head hurts..sigh!

Wats wrong..i wonder..

Really needed a hug..

or sumone who actually cares..

Hikhikhik..i guess tis is the down side of being alone..

Well tonite i wanna quote sumthin from Marilyn Monroe:


“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
― Marilyn Monroe

So, im gonna off for noww..finding drug n sleep..

P/s - show me, dun tell me..words are just words..

Reward

Morn peeps..

Topic of the day, how do u reward yourself?
Hurm..me, i used to reward myself with good food..hehe..tats how i turn of to be 'tebal' like tis..i used to spend money for places like Chillies', Merche', Tony Romas..but now i realized y should i spend money for food when i wanted to loose weight (for Awien's wedding)???

Hehe..the truth is i saw sumthing SUPER DUPER NICE this eve..Tissot T-race! Caught my eyes..heart skips a beat..saliva dripping..hehe..<-- tis is how i imagine myself at tat time. But then i recall tat i have OTHER importance commitment coz ramadhan is coming then raya then i think i need to buy sumthin for my mom (phone & washin machine), so i walked away from my lovely Tissot shop..huaaaaaahuaaaahuaaa...(nak tisssottttttt....!)

So i said to my self, be patient dear heart..kumpul duit dulu then i will reward myself with this if i cud finish my degree @3.5 cgpa..huhuuu..so still got time to save sum money. and i did asked sumone to reward me with this nice thing, hehe..pow!

Moral of the story...hurmm..ntah ape tah,..hurm..ha, Once a while we need to reward ourself..we sometimes worked too hard n think about peeps around us more than ourself n we forgot that in the end peeps cant make us happy when we r not happy with ourself..so, lets reward ourself n live happily ever after? Ahaha..reward is motivation for me,tat its..

Lets go sholat subuh..n have a great day peeps!

P/s- Many wud belive in lies bcos the truth requires changes..heart,please b strong, please change.....

An affirmation of letting go

..this is sumthing i read tis morn, its kinda suits the situation..like it..so myb tis cud inspire u guys too..sumhow i feel inspired..lol..

I am willing to trust. I know that to the degree I am willing to give up my search for a healthy love relationship, I can have it. I know I can have whatever I am ready and willing to receive. Individual receptivity is everything. Without it, nothing changes. With it, all things are possible. I no longer insist upon my choice.

I know that the only thing I lose when I let go of something I am afraid to live without is the fear itself. I am stronger than anything that frightens me!

I let go of the past, and I am free to think clearly and positively in the present. I am not my past.

Letting go is the natural release which always follows the realization that holding on is an energy drain and it hurts. Letting go happens effortlessly when there is no other choice. Letting go does not mean giving up.

Letting go is a journey that never ends. It only begins — over and over again — each time I can glimpse something higher than my own painful certainty over who I think I am. There is always something higher; a life beyond the limits of my present sight.

To see what is farther I must be willing to lift my eyes from their present point of focus. Release always follows revelation and real revelation is always a glimpse of something that was only just out of sight.

I know that stress in my love relationship exists because I insist! What I resist, it persists. I am tied to whatever I avoid.

It is a mistaken belief that I must push my love relationship in the direction I choose that keeps me in a strained and unhappy relationship with it. Reality has its own effortless course, and I can either embrace its way or struggle endlessly with mine.

I do not need power to flow.

I let go of that part of myself that is certain it is better to suffer and feel like someone than it is to just let go and quietly be no one. I give birth to a new me that never has to hold on to anything because it is already everything.

I dare to walk away from all of the familiar but useless mental and emotional relationships that give me a temporary but unsatisfactory sense of self. My true identity is calling me and to hear it I must be willing to endure, for as long as necessary, the fear of self-uncertainty.

This form of seeming self-abandonment eventually turns into my greatest pleasure as it becomes increasingly evident that the only thing certain about fear is that it will always compromise me. When it comes to who I really am, there is no compromise.

Let go of the past. The past is yesterday. It is irretrievable. When you relate to the past, you relate to no one or any thing. You are literally talking to yourself. No one else is listening. You have already heard all you have to say about that, so, let go.

It is certifiable insanity to conjure up your own reality based on the past and relate to it, rather than to relate to the present which is the only reality.

I say goodbye to the past and hello to the present.

I am enthusiastic about who I am becoming! I know that no one sincerely asks for a new life until they are thoroughly dissatisfied with the old one. I am and I let go. When I allow myself to let go of what is old, I stay true to what is new.

This is it!

I live in the present. I never let the past dictate the direction of the present moment. I give my best to my endeavors.

What lies ahead for me can only be good.

True peace and harmony are a part of who I am.

I have come to the realization that what is possible for me to become only truly changes when I am willing to see what is impossible for me to continue being.

P/s-“No one can promise they’ll never hurt you because at one time or another, it will happen. The real promise is if the time you spend together will be worth the pain in the end.” - nite2, mau titon sudey..

July..!

Here comes july..huhu..time had passed so fast ey?

Today im picking up my life slowly..learning to b strong just for me.
So im picking up pieces of me..one by one..little my little..in the search to b whole again..

I've never been alone for almost 8 years..wallawey..but sumhow rite now this just feel right..i feel calm..i feel alone..huhu..

Life must go on..if i wanna b happy i gotta live my life today..

So i gotta set a new goals..i dun wanna b lost again. I wanna be me..just me..
The focus rite now is me, myself n i..

New goals..here we go:
1. Finnish my studies in 3sems..
2. Find new environment - should i move out from s.alam or should i find another job??hurm..still thinkin
3. New workout plan..this actly can b very very interesting..LOL
4. Play more..hockey, paintball (new love..hehe..loike!)
5. Buy houz..adoi been delayin this thing for a year now, come on leeya focus!
6. Ooo..almost forgot i thing..t-touch! Hehe..gambatte, kumpul duit!

Enough till tis 6 thing..cant focus on too many thing at once kn..so let the game begin again..

P/s - Starting again ..is a prove that i am not scared anymore, that i am better..come wat ever may, i'll b standing tall alone!

Exam..

Huhu..finally tmorrow is the day, my final examination day..im lucky got face two paper tmorrow..wallawey..cm xdo ari laen da..mangkok tol. Neway, im studying..yeah rite, no la im typing 4 my blog first then im gonna study..

So tomorrow another day tat i need to pass quickly..dun wanna waste any extra minutes on it..please go faster mr.tomorow, i have too many thing inside my head n too lil time to take it out..so kalu kite kaji, kite kupas.....

So, im copying a fren tweets:
Jatuh..berdiri lagi
Gagal..cuba lagi
Kalah..bangkit lagi
Sampai Tuhan kata 'sudah sampai masanya aku ambil kamu pergi'

So moral of the story..i will b up again, i will rise up n face the world again. I will not gave up..n sum how i will prove to YOU tat i am better than this..

Tats all for today my fund raisin notes are calling me..hehee..

Good nite peeps..

P/s- tired..need a hug ;(

Outs...

Im sleepy..im just about to sleep when my phone rings..demn!

So now i cant sleep..i noe if i force myself to sleep i'll end up with headache..so y bother when i can do sumthing better like updating my blog..hehe..

So todays topic is outsss...this week n next week i'll be outs..
Oustation lor..hehe..gotta accompany a sports team to Sintok, Kedah for a tournament. Then come back from tat i think after a day then going to Kuantan, Pahang for SUKMA..yeay! Dun have to b in the office so much..

So..reading wat i wrote just now make me sleepy again..good job!

So again so..here the program for next two weeks..<-- tis is an improvement..i can only plan three days ahead before, da!

July will be a super bz month..MASUM Fasa 2 in UTHM BATU PAHAT from 13 july to 19 july..again i'll be outsss..huhu..untong la kalu bole byr sewa umh seminggu je..hehe..

Anyways, all these outss is good..then by mid of july its alredy Ramadhan..huhu..then only i can breath easily..till then, there's so much to do but with so limited time..

Tats it for today..tonite study for law paper, tomorrow all out study again..wallawey..wish me luck!

P/s-heart n brain..please dun fail me now..i need u both! Lourve..teman sy? Huhuhu..

Give your heart a break!

The day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love
But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was

Now here we are
So close yet so far
Haven't I passed the test
When will you realize
Baby, I'm not like the rest

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

On Sunday you went home alone
There were tears in your eyes
I called your cell phone, my love
But you did not reply

The world is ours if we want it
We can take it if you just take my hand
There's no turning back now
Baby, try to understand

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There's just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

When your lips are on my lips
And our hearts beat as one
But you slip out of my fingertips
Every time you run, whoa-oh-whoa-oh-oh

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong

Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break
(Let me give your heart a break)

'Cause you've been hurt before
I can see it in your eyes
You try to smile it away, some things you can't disguise
Don't wanna break your heart
Maybe, I can ease the ache, the ache
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There's just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break (your heart), your heart a break (a break)
Oh yeah, yeah

The day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love

P/s- thank you 4 being so understanding..4 being there 4 me when i need u the most..

Today..

Gathering wathever left of me to b strong to face the world!

Ganbatte..!

Tats the focus of the year..bole ke? Yes i can..

P/s- Pain makes you stronger. Tears make you braver. Heartbreak makes you wiser. So thank the past for a better future

Happiness

A simple question..what is happiness? This is sumthing i copy from wikipedia- Happiness is a mental or emotional state of well-being characterized by positive or pleasant emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.

So happiness..how do we find happiness? I honestly dunno since we are the one who noes wat we need to b happy..

This sumthing i read from a blog..<-- tatau spe

Happiness is something we all supposedly want and strive for, but many of us do not achieve. We may have good days, or fun nights, but in the day to day moments, we get too caught up in emotions like worry, anger, annoyance, or disappointment to be happy.

We are happy by default. If we have our basic survival needs, food, water, shelter, a moderate temperature, enough sleep, and people around us who are good to us…we really should be happy.

The saying “money can’t buy happiness” is repeated a lot, so many times that one would believe it to be true. Truth is, there are a lot of rich people who are miserable, a lot of poor people who are happy…and there are a lot of rich people who are happy, and poor people who are miserable. Money is not tied to happiness, unless a person decides it to be. Some shun money, others envy those who have it, and others still have it but are so afraid of losing it that they still are not ever really happy.

When you encounter in life a tragedy, a death, a major illness or accident, there is so much shock from the feeling of loss that it is not possible to just shake it off. It is then that a lot of people realize what they had before. They wish for yesterday to return, but if yesterday did return, they would not have appreciated it.

During times of major upset, one has to go through mourning and deal with grief.

Outside of times of major upset, happiness is really just a matter of choice. You really can just choose to be happy and be so. Other people and circumstances will arise that are not what you expected, or are obstacles, but whether you’re happy or angry, most of the time, they will still be there. When you choose to maintain your positive outlook, you’ll be more open to solutions than if you allow yourself to get really angry or really sad. If you focus on what you want…happiness….it will return shortly. If you shift your focus to what’s “wrong” in that moment, then happiness will make a quick exit.

..so again wat is happiness? Search deep into urself, find wat actly make u feel comfortable..make u feel alive..n most important make u feel u..then for me, i guest tats my definition of happiness..

P/s - Past mistakes should teach you to create a BETTER future; not cause you to be afraid of it..dun b afraid ;)

Its a NO!

Topic for today..how to say NO which mean NO..

japanese - nashi
Russian - net
Turkish - Yok
Welsh - Dim
Vietnamese - Khong
Chinese - meiyou
Dutch - geen
French - aucun
German - kien
Hindi - nahim

..and the list continue..

Recently i have to say NO to sumone who wanted more than just close frens.but the thing is he demand for answer when i finally says NO,he keep on pushing n wanting for more..wat else should i say? Adoi la..im not a state to let anyone in my life. Why cant he understand tat? I've explained to him before n he keeps on going like wat i said didnt register in his head..haish, i dun understand him at all..

Let me explain bout my heart..i might looked strong but the truth is my heart are so frigile..once i let u in n u hurt me, my recovery wud b very slow..n i need sumone with me at tat time..so u promise u wont hurt me but then said if i dun say yes right now u dunno will u b here tomorrow as i quote his own word "ati x tetap kalau da lame2.."
Adoiyai, how am i suppose to say yes when he roughly says "i might break ur heart sumday..". Can i say wat the F? Huhuu..i cant let him in..watever..

So now, im staying away n u keep on pushing for answer..wat else should i say, please move on? Loosing him as a fren had hurt so much n the 'pushing' is hurting the relationship even more..i wont answer any of his text anymore..everything i do is been misunderstood.

Please understand no every women says NO means YES..

Myb its my fault..men n women arent meant to b close fren..like he said, "penah ke i lyn u cm kawan?"..but he treated every gurl like tat kot..so watever lagik. Bleukk..hate u!

My baby

Alhamdulillah..my bby neo had a 'kaki' changed tis evening..
Bby neo feels more besh than before..hehe..i loike..loike..loike..
Anyway, got great price for the new tyres..which is far cheaper than in klang or kL, hehee lagik! Loike..loike..loike..

Huhu..i want to upload bby neo new pix but cant do tat thru ipad..
So watever..hehe..bby neo looks cool..!

Today i feel so greatful..so mode happy

P/s- “No regrets. No looking back. Just hold onto life and move forward. We have no way of knowing what lies ahead…and that is what makes the journey even more exciting.” -Susan Gale

Polka dotss..

Ra da da da da da da da circus
Da da da da da da da da afro
Circus afro, circus afro,
Polka dot polka dot polka dot afro

(Ra da da da da da da da circus)
I like to move it move it
(Da da da da da da da da afro)
I like to move it move it
(Circus afro, circus afro)
I like to move it move it
(Polka dot polka dot polka dot afro)
You like to move it (move it!)

Ra da da da da da da da circus
Da da da da da da da da afro
Circus afro, circus afro,
Polka dot polka dot polka dot (move it!)

Woman! Ya nice sweet energetic
(Circus afro, circus afro)
Woman! Ya nice broad face
And ya nice hip
(Polka dot polka dot afro)
Woman! Ya nice and energetic
Big ship 'pon de ocean that a big Titanic
Woman! Ya nice broad face
And ya nice hip

Hip make man
Flip and bust them lip
Woman! Ya nice sweet energetic
Big ship 'pon de ocean that a big Titanic
Whoa

I like to move it move it
I like to move it move it
I like to move it move it

Yes!

Da da da da da da da da circus
Da da da da da da da da afro
Circus afro, circus afro,
Polka dot polka dot polka dot (move it!)

Da da da da da da da da circus..circus..circus..circus..circus (move it)
Da da da da da da da da afro..afro..afro..afro..afro

Woman ya cute
And you don't need no make up
Original cute body you a mek man mud up

Woman ya cute
And you don't need no make up
Original cute body you a mek man mud up

Come' on
Physically fit
Physically fit
Physically
Phyiscally
Phyiscally
Physically fit!

Come' on
Physically fit
Physically fit
Physically
Phyiscally
Phyiscally
Physically fit!

(Come' on)
I like to move it move it
(Come' on)
I like to move it move it
(Come' on)
I like to move it move it
(Come' on)
You like to (move it!)

(Da da da da da da da da circus)
I like to move it move it
(Da da da da da da da da afro)
I like to move it move it
(Circus afro, circus afro)
I like to move it move it
(Polka dot polka dot polka dot afro)
You like to (move it!)

Woman! Ya nice
Sweet fantastic
Big ship 'pon de ocean that a big Titanic

Woman! Ya nice
Sweet fantastic
Big ship 'pon de ocean that a big..(Let's roll)

I like to move it move it
He like to move it move it
She like to move it move it
You like to (move it!)

(Da da da da da da da da circus)
I like to move it move it
(Da da da da da da da da afro)
I like to move it move it
(Circus afro, circus afro)
I like to move it move it
(Polka dot polka dot polka dot afro)
You like to (move it! move it! move it!)

(Da da da da da da da da circus)
I like to move it move it
(Da da da da da da da da afro)
He like to move it move it
(Circus afro, circus afro)
She like to move it move it
(Polka dot polka dot polka dot afro)
You like to (move it! move it! move it!)

My plan

These days i plan my life day to day basis because thinkin more than three days hurts..huhu

So here's my plan

Saturday - go to mummy's houz, lepakin, shopping for my lil sis
Sunday - go back to shah alam
Monday - find my way to KPTM Cheras..sigh..n study for my exam on wednesday

Hadoii la..n the time passed us by, tick..tock..tick..tock..


“No matter how strong a woman is, she wishes for a man to be stronger than herself. Not in order to give him the right to limit her freedom, but to give her the right to be weak.” -unknown

P/s-need a hug..when i close my eyes n ur just........

Fallin in love..

Today im so very happieeee...
I found new love..
I fall in love with PAINTBALL!
Hoooyeeee...hehee

This morn we got PAINTBALL session!
Besh gilerrr..bcause i can shooot at people..
Wakakaka..

The adrenaline rocks!!
So i fall for PAINTBALL..fall in love
I just love it..

N im sooo proud of all the bruise..
Got 4 bruise..
2 on my right arm
1 on my left shoulder
1 on my abs
Its paaaaaainful, hukhukhuk
But its worth every sec..ahaha

So im proud to announce tat i fall in love with PAINTBALL

Owh,1 bruise on my knee..forgot bout tat..
N whole body aching..muahahaa..love it too

BFF..lets go play PAINTBALL? Puulissssssss....???

P/s- just love u..hehe

Karaoke practise

Practising this song for karaoke..





Hatiku hatimu
Menjadi satu cinta
Ku rasa hadirmu menyempurnakan aku
Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini
Mungkin kita bersama
Nanti di atas sana
Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu
Selamanya

Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini
Mungkin kita bersama
Nanti di atas sana
Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini

Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu
Selamanya

..i think i need to increase my fitness level first for this song..ok, jogg yok..!

P/s- missing u..

Too much

I ate too much
I think too much
I wonder too much
I post too much
I dream too much
I hope too much
I love too much
Its just too much..

“The longer you have to wait for something, the more you will appreciate it when it finally arrives. The harder you have to fight for something, the more priceless it will become once you achieve it. And the more pain you have to endure on your journey, the sweeter the arrival at your destination. All good things are worth waiting for and worth fighting for.” -Susan Gale


P/s-What if i am too much?

Layaaann..

While melayan kebosanan..im singing out of nowhere..hehe

PATAH SERIBU - SHILA AMZAH

Walau kau tiada di sini
Ku tetap ingat semua pesanmu
Ku hidup seolah-olah kau masih ada
Bisikkan kata kepadaku
Bilakah kau akan utuskan surat buatku
Aku terus menunggu tibanya kata cintamu

Patah seribu hatiku
Bila mengenangkan segala yang kita bina bersama
Haruskah ku lupa kerna engkau telah pergi

Biar pergimu tanpa relamu
Namun hatiku tetap rasa
Kejamnya kau meninggalkanku dengan nota-nota
Cinta buat kita berdua bila kan ku bisa menerima ketiadaanmu
Kan ku bakar semua
Hapuskan semua kenangan

Patah seribu hatiku
Bila mengenangkan segala yang kita bina bersama
Haruskah ku lupa kerna engkau telah pergi

Sayangku mohon padamu
Segera tinggalkanku
Pergilah kau ke tempat yang kau tuju
Pasti ada hikmah buatmu dan juga buat diriku
Pergilah


P/s- i love u..

Finding sumone..

‎”Find someone who isn’t afraid to admit they miss you.
Someone who knows you’re not perfect but treats you as if you are.
Someone who couldn’t imagine losing you.
Someone who gives their heart to you completely.
Someone who says I love you and proves it.
Last but not least, find someone who wouldn’t mind waking up to you in the morning, seeing your wrinkles and grey hair but still falls in love with you all over again.”

..a fren said

Be with someone...who won't stay mad at you,
Who can't stand not talking to you
and who's afraid of losing you...

..for me

I'll wait for that sumone..

P/s- bsuk..missed u, jauhhhhh...

Coaching - new approaches

Today we're having Dr.Munir session of "applying science to coaching : new approaches in coaching" ..nice! lost my touch in coaching since i've been doing sterno work all the time..

Universities athletes are in unique environment meaning these athletes needs specialist group in sports team management. These includes strength n conditioning trainers, psychologist, nutritionist and most important physioterapist..

Lalalala..smp ctu je i da leh wat muke bosan sbb da penat ckp kat bos xdo lak dia nk dongar..adehh..

Anyway, the talks continues..four major roles of high performance coaches:
1. Direct intervention
2. Supporting intervention
3. Managing constraint
4. Coordinating strategy

Again the second roles supporting intervention which is where coaches need extra knowledge on physiology, nutrition n psychology. Have we ever tested our athletes on hyration? Very simple physiological approaches will enhance training program..Emphasization is more important.

And shifting our data on not only winning or losing data to the quality of coaching itself..n the talk continues while im trying my best not to fall asleep..hehe..lucky the subject is very interesting..but im quite sure i'll b sleeping in the next talk, management!? Laalalaa..eh slh, zzzzzZZZZzzzz...

P/s- lourve pls b in my dream..xoxo

**sigh**

:
Who am I, love?
What am I supposed to be?

One life alone
Oh, somehow it's made for me

What do I do?
What can I say?
It's nothing new
The choice was made

But what if I lose my way?
And run right into you
Deep inside we'll never be anything other than lonely
Tell me what does it take?
To breathe it into you
Weak inside we'll never be anything other than lonely

One blinking star
Still feels how it used to feel

It's all so wrong
No easy way to believe

What do I do?
What can I say?
It's nothing new
The choice was made

But what if I lose my way?
And run right into you
Deep inside we'll never be anything other than lonely
Tell me what does it take?
To breathe it into you
Weak inside we'll never be anything other than lonely

I wanna run
I wanna hide
What I've become
Now you're no longer mine
I wanna feel
Something that's real
Somewhere inside

But what if I lose my way?
And run right into you
Deep inside we'll never be anything other than lonely
Tell me what does it take?
To breathe it into you,
Weak inside we'll never be anything other than lonely

I wanna run
I wanna hide
What I've become
Now you're no longer mine
I wanna feel
Something that's real
Somewhere inside

E-village

Today i've started a new day @e-village aka Kg.Gajah, Perak..muahahaa..cute aite? Anyway its a refreshing start, very calm n quite..my day started with slow walk @7am..huhu..nice..then i sleep like a baby last nite,yeay!

So today no more PROTEST..hehe..just for today! Ok concentrate meeting..

P/s - singing I..i love u like a love song,bby..lagu gagap..

Protest part-2

Well i have completed a few of the non-sleeping PROTEST..

1.Played hockey..body no more aching, DOMS la sgt..muahaha..need more exercise

2.Go Genting - Done!

3.cut my hair...! - my hair now are simply short n i feel sexy, kekekee..i looked like @ashlabeey..she didnt see it yet, but already complaining..blablabla..THIS IS A PROTEST remember?

4. Karaoke session - did it last nite till 2am @wangsa walk..wallawey, this all @pja fault, drag me all the way there just for karaoke. Well it was nice n i end up with more coughing n sore throat..lalalala..dun care..THIS IS A PROTEST..

5. Durians- i found this can also be a PROTEST! Muahaha..ate durians a lot yesterday..stomach hurt.have anyone died b4 by eating doyans? I dun think so..lalalaala again dun care! THIS IS A PROTEST!

So the list will continue..i will resume.. Huhuu..

Till then..heart pls pls pls b strong, Life isnt about waiting for the storm to pass...its about Learning to dance in the rain..

P/s - singing Tanpa Kekasihku by Agnes..lalalalalala

Tegar - rossa

Tergoda aku 'tuk berfikir
Dia yang tercinta
Mengapa t'lah lama tak nampak
Dirimu disini
Jangankan ingin ku tersenyum
Tak ada gairah
Kuingin s'lalu bersamamu

Kini ku resah...
Diriku lemah tanpamu
Oh... oh...

Gapai semua jemariku
Rangkul aku dalam bahagiamu
Kuingin bersama berdua selamanya
Jika kubuka mata ini
Kuingin s'lalu ada dirimu
Dalam kelemahan hati ini
Bersamamu... Aku tegar...

Aku tegar

...karaoke session?lets jom..this is the fourth PROTEST! Karaoke smp lebam..! Laaayaaannn....

England vs Denmark

Lalala..cant sleep so i end up watching Euro2012,huhu..eng vs den, quite nice with lots lots lots goals. Lucky both team keep on making mistakes n scoring if not its just another dull game..

So the score was 3-2, yeap england won..congratulations to all england supporters..hikhikhik..enjoy it while u still can. Well as usual they played like they always do, boring game like i said if not for the goals then myb i wud fall asleep..hehee..myb la kot?

Whateve it is, england shud let their youngsters play more..the old horses such as Mr.G shud stop la playin for england. He just a passanger in the game, keep making mistakes, keep on loosing the ball, making the defender suffer..but credit to terry, he keep on fightin even manage to try scoring for england during one of their counter attack which is terrific since he was the last men,hehe..

Well, all and all, congratulations england..im wasting my time till subuh prayers..lalalala..


P/s - my oranjer..no luck lor..hukhukhuk

Protest!

Since i cant sleep, here are my plan of protest!

1. Play hockey - hehee..yesterday i played hockey with my students..wallawey, havent play for a few months n i've lost my touch, ouch..cant even dribble properly? Demn..need training badly. But wat i l0ike is the body aching after the workout make me feel so ALIVE! Muahaha.. Devil laugh..my doc advice "no sports for 3months after surgery ya?" ...so THIS IS A PROTEST! Can feel the pain on my surgery area after the game but who cares?

2. Hair cut - im still thinkin shud i cut my hair? Hurm..still considering..hurm..myb i shud..it will make my head a lil bit lighter..cut it short lar! THIS IS A PROTEST! Tomorrow la cut my hair..the third PROTEST is calling..ngee!

3. Go Genting! - a fren ask me whether i wud like to accompany her there..free room, just relax myself..but the thing is im sleepy, can i drive tat far? Lolololo..if i fall asleep while drivin to Genting..erm, cant b kot..the road there very laayaaann..hehee..but baby neo didnt change tires yet..huhu..consider..consider but THIS IS A PROTEST..who care?ahaha..lets jom..Genting ere i come!

4. Next PROTEST..erm, still thinkin..


P/s- this is a PROTEST..i dun care if i ever sleep or not!

..pain..

Headache reach maximum today..I just need a nap..

Y cant i sleep..mayb i shud shut down myself for a while..

Anybody got idea on how? Huhu..

this not sleeping mode have to stop, huhuhu..

.Separation.

I was searching for sumthin when i came accross tis story..funny but very truee..hehe..makes me smile..

http://shine.yahoo.com/love-sex/115-years-together-tortoises-separate-ways-182500381.html



Read it..might just make ur day..

P/s - its a love story.. ;)

speechless..

blurr..let the pic do the talking, speechlesssss...

p/s - I love u?..ngee

Tears..

..my days always end up with tears these days..

..i need a hug..

..please b here quickly..

..eyes, please give up now..

..i need to sleep, y wont u let me..

..Solah is the time this heart wud b calm..

..insya-ALLAH..

Tentang Rasa - Astrid

i woke up with tis song tis morn..kinda remind me y i choose tis before..


Tentang Rasa - Astrid

Aku tersesat

Menuju hatimu

Beri aku jalan yang indah

Izinkan ku lepas penatku

‘tuk sejenak lelap di bahumu


Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama

Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku

Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi

Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya


Tentang cinta yang datang perlahan

Membuatku takut kehilangan

Ku titipkan cahaya terang

Tak padam di dera goda dan masa


Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama

Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku

Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi

Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya


Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama

Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku

Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi

Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya


i dunno wat will i go thru but all the sweet memories hopefully will make me strong enough to smile each n everyday..will motivate me..make me strong..hiyyaaahhh!!


the question remain unanswered is..will we ever be together?


wat i think is sure for now..life is unpredictable, people change..so live the life for today and we'll be happy, right? <-- a quote from my BFF actually..


So..Bcok, love u!


argh..skt pale..titon jap la..nites

A song in my head..

Tah cmne tis song keep repeating in my head..huhuhuu..laayaannnnn je la

Saat terakhir ku - st12

tak pernah terpikir olehku
tak sedikit pun ku menyangka
kau akan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri
begitu sulit ku menyangkal
begitu sakit ku rasakan
kau akan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri

* di bawah batu nisan kini kau tlah sandarkan
kasih sayang kamu begitu dalam
sungguh ku tak sanggup ini terjadi
karna ku sangat cinta

** ini lah saat terakhirku melihat kamu
jatuh air mataku menangis pilu
hanya mampu ucapkan selamat jalan kasih
satu jam saja ku telah bisa
cintai kamu kamu kamu di hatiku
namun bagiku melupakanmu
butuh waktuku seumur hidup

satu jam saja ku telah bisa
sayangi kamu di hatiku
namun bagiku melupakanmu
butuh waktuku seumur hidup
di nantiku

repeat **
satu jam saja ku telah bisa
cintai kamu kamu kamu di hatiku
namun bagiku melupakanmu
butuh waktuku seumur hidup
satu jam saja ku telah bisa
sayangi kamu di hatiku
namun bagiku melupakanmu
butuh waktuku seumur hidup

Yakinlah Aku Menjemput Mu

here a song from my BFF list..hehe..sumhow, i just feel if sumone sing tis song for me i wud just be a choc under the sun..hikhikhik..cair kot..poyos..enjoy!

Yakinlah Aku Menjemput Mu - Kangen Band

teringat selalu wajah kekasihku
saat ku menuai lalu
coba engkau dengarkan
ku tuaikan nada lirik lagu sederhana
ku ceritakan kisah tentang kita

peluklah tubuhku bila engkau rapuh
saat kau mulai terjatuh
aku datang menyelamatkanmu
ini surga kita tiada yang menguasainya
tempat kita bersandar dan bertahta

reff:
tenang sayang, ku pasti akan datang
yakinlah aku menjemputmu
jangan menangis, hapus air matamu
yakinlah ku tetap milikmu

tenang sayang, ku tepati janjiku
karna kau wanita terhebat
peluk tubuhku, matilah di pelukanku
biar seluruh jagad raya tahu

tenang sayang, ku sambut engkau datang
ku yakin engkau menjemputku
jangan menangis, hapus air matamu
yakinkan ku tetap milikmu

tenang sayang, ku pasti akan datang
yakinlah aku menjemputmu
jangan menangis, hapus air matamu
yakinlah ku tetap milikmu

tenang sayang, ku tepati janjiku
karna kau wanita terhebat
peluk tubuhku, matilah di pelukanku
biar seluruh jagad raya tahu

tenang sayang, ku sambut engkau datang
ku yakin engkau menjemputku
peluk tubuhku, matilah di pelukanku
biar seluruh jagad raya tahu
kau milikku

Lara lagi..

Lara lagi (OST Ombak Rindu) by Adira

Hanya sampai di sini sahaja
Kisah cinta kita berdua
Tiada daya selamanya
Terhenti di sini

Biar ku pujuk hati ini
Merawat rinduku sendiri
Setelah aku kau lukai
Sedangkan kau tahu

Kasih aku hanyalah untukmu
Tiada lain dalam diriku
Takkan berubah
walau dipisah laut biru

Cinta aku hanyalah untukmu
Tak pernah goyah, tak pernah jemu
Takkan terpadam dalam hatiku
Ia milikmu, percayalah

Mungkin sudah suratan kita
Terpisah sebegini saja
Pasti di satu hari nanti
Ku jejak bahgia

Kasih aku hanyalah untukmu
Tiada lain dalam diriku
Takkan berubah
walau dipisah laut biru

Cinta aku hanyalah untukmu
Tak pernah goyah, tak pernah jemu
Takkan terpadam dalam hatiku
Ia milikmu, percayalah

Mungkin sudah suratan kita
Terpisah sebegini saja
Pasti di satu hari nanti
Ku jejak bahgia

B strong..

Stay strong, because things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can’t rain forever. -unknown

A fren said..ingat eventhou there's no one around with u, ALLAH will alwez b there..u family will alwez b there..find ur inner strenght n u will b ok..

Thank you..i will b ok ;)

Durians..

Yeay ms zara darwina anta durianz! Muahahaa..

Tetbe sedey..smlm bru sembang sal durians..huhuu

Sy mkn bg pihak sume org la eh? Hikhikhik..

Acane nk bukak..x geti..huwaaaaaa...!

B..

Im letting u go..thx 4 everything..

Alone is just wat i choose to b..

B happy..

Wish me luck..

Appreciate what u have..nourish it

Myb u were right, i think of people around me more than i suppose to

U remember my 3 terms right..?

U know where to find me if u completed those terms..

Alone, i will b strong..

Take care..

Relationship..

Suppostedly i shud be doin my assigment but sumhow i think tis is more important..
So relationship..everybody have their very own view on tis sacret word.so here wat i think of relationship..

First of all u have to understand wat type of relationship ur looking for? Love..friends..life partners..etc etc..then comes another question, wats ur expectations from the relationship..if its love, u might expect to be married to tat person someday (for example).

Then come the tricky part, getting to noe each other..understanding the reason for every smile, wat he/she like or dislikes, wat kind of movie,wat kind of food, where to eat..all tis will somehow bring us closer together.some believe similarity is better than differences..but then from wat i c its not whether u lovethe same food, but its whether the other persons makes u feel complete. In my opinion the main reason u were attracted to the other person is not only the similarities or differences but how u the other persons completes u..

After a few years gone by u come to realized tat u actly noe everything bout him/her..wats next? Tis is where most of relationship fails..relationship fails when u stop figuring out the other person and start acting like its a habit..for example after u sit down in a cafe the 1 question wud b "shyg u nak mkn mee goreng eh?"..tat 'shyg' didnt even open the menu and immediately u assume he/she wanted mee goreng, which might be sumthin tat he/she love to eat but then assuming is not a way relationship goes..y dun u just ask "wat wud u like to have shyg?"..everybody noe in relationship communication worked both ways but then we the one who set limitation to tis so called communication..

For me 'habits' kills relationship..once greeting "good morn shyg" everyday becomes a habit then theres nothing special about wishing good morns anymore..another simple example is kissing good nite, when it becomes a habit then the love just fade..y cant we treat each n everyday as a brand new day for us? Do sumthin new everyday, kiss gd morn instead of gd nite. Suprise with a give once a while..

Well all and all..wat im tryin to say is relationship dun need habits..relationship needs sparkle, need communication, need love..but tat just me..

P/s- heart pls b strong..love pls dun fade..nite2