My problems..

Here r the list of my problem...

1. I cant see you rite now so i keep on wishing sumday i will..
2. Sumone left so i think eventually everybody will leave me..
3. I dream of some1 who will love me, take care of me till the day i left tis world but i often forgot tat it was just a dream..
4. I wish u were here but i forgot im not ur priority..
5. I wanted to sleep then ur not by my side..so i lie awake
6. I sing but then its ur song..
7. I wipe my tears..n keep on wishing 4 new dreams..
8. I forget all there is just ME..

So..

To Let Go..

To Let Go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can’t do it for someone else.

To Let Go is not to cut myself off,
it is the realization I can’t control another.

To Let Go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.

To Let Go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To Let Go is not to try to change or blame another,
it is to make the most of myself.

To Let Go is not to care for,
but to care about.

To Let Go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.

To Let Go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.

To Let Go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.

To Let Go is not to be protective,
it is to permit another to face reality.

To Let Go is not to deny,
but to accept.

To Let Go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To Let Go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes, and cherish myself in it.

To Let Go is not to criticize and regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.

To Let Go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

To Let Go is to fear less
And LOVE more..

P/s - heart please b strong..

Reason..

I read a quotes saying : 'The moment you think about giving up, think of the reason why you held on so long. - unknown'.... Hurm..wat happen to my reason? Vanished in thin air? Huhu..myb it just disappeared the moment my heart was broken..sigh! But then when i think bout it the reason for me to hold on is still there, i just choose to let go bcoz i simply wont survive another heart break episode..lalalala..frigile me. P/s - bole tampal sticker frigile kat ati sy x? Hehee..

s0metimes i wonder..can love really last when all we do is hurting each other?
s0metimes i wonder..can love really last when all we do is giving excuses to each other?
s0metimes i wonder..can love really last when all we do is looking at the opposite direction?
s0metimes i wonder..can love really last when all we do is not being there for each other?
n s0metimes i wonder..is it love at all??

demn!

Sumthing sumthing..

While I was walking, I stopped for a while and thought of the things I don’t have. Then I realize that the happiest moment of all the people don’t necessarily have the best of everything: they just make the most of everything that comes along the way. It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lost it but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives. In the gateway of my heart I put a sign that says, “No trespassing” but love came laughing and said, “I enter everywhere” Love knows no reasons, love knows no lies, love defies all reasons, love has no eyes. But love is not blind love sees but it doesn’t mind. Love is when you take away feeling. The passion the romance and you find that you still care for the person. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes, the things that give you joy and strength can also hurt you in the end. It starts with a smile, develops with a kiss and ends with a tear. When you love you must not expect anything in return. If you accept happiness, you’re not loving but using. Don’t go for looks, it can deceive. Don’t go for wealth even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because only a smile make a day seem bright. The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly on them and not to twist them to fit our own image otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them. Never try to impress someone to make him/her fall in love with you because when you do you’ll have to keep those standards for the rest of your life. A sad thing about life is that when we meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out that in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let him/her go. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person we should know to be grateful for the gift. We can’t often see the reason why we don’t always get what we want but in the end of it all we realize that what we wanted was not meant for us at all everything happens for a reason. When you feel down because you didn’t get what you wanted just sit right and be happy because God’s thinking for something better for you. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return but what is the most painful is to love someone and never have the courage to let the person how you feel. It’s always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose in the end rather than never finding love because you were too afraid to face its challenge. The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take. If you think something will make you happy, go for it. Love no matter how hard you find it. You won’t see it. No matter how hard you try, you won’t get it. But when you’re about to give up, it comes. Sometimes the love that we are looking for this right in front of us is too close for our eyes to see. So close your eyes to let your heart see itself. There are things you love to hear but you can’t hear it from the person who says it with his heart just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want. There are many stars in the sky, only some are radiant to be noticed. God never closes the door without opening the window. He always gives us something better when He takes something away. In relationships thank God when you’re hurting or crying, there you are given the chance to measure the importance of the relationship of the person and of yourself. When you grow you don’t become a better person because you experience suffering. We have no right to ask when sorrow comes. “Why does this happen to me?” unless we ask the same question or every moment of happiness that comes our way. When God puts a tear in your eye it’s because He wants to put a rainbow in your heart. There are some things that we never want to let go of people we never want to leave behind but keep n mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world. It’s the beginning of the new life. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can’t go on well in life when you can’t let go you’re past failures and heartaches. To let go is not to deny but to accept. To let go is not regret the past but to grow and to live for the future. To let go is to fear less and to love more. Don’t be afraid to break someone’s heart or leave your heart broken because that’s how relationships are when you’re young they are stepping-stones for the main one. Follow your heart. It might not right but despite the pain you will have memories that will make you smile every once and rare while. It’s better to lose the person you love now and have him later than have him now and lose him forever. Love has its time, seasons and own reasons. You can’t ask it to stay. You can only embrace it comes and be glad that a moment of your life it was yours. Each of us is what we will. But we can never go back a day. Don’t let each moment pass you by for within the twin ding eye that moment shall go and that feeling shall die. It might be too late when you open your eyes. Don’t be so busy the life you’re going to have that you fall to appreciate that you’ve already given. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be cause you only have one life and one chance to do all the things that you want in life. We are never given dreams without the power to make it come true. A heart in love never loses hope but always believes in the promises of love. No matter how long the time and how far the distance never say goodbye when you still want to try, never give up when you still can take it, never say you don’t love that person anymore when you can’t let go. True love doesn’t have a happy ending. That’s because love doesn’t have an ending

 P/s - heart pls be strong..love pls keep on dreaming..

To teddy..

Today is my 3rd day after an appemdix operation..which still painful..huhu..im recovering thanks to besties who spend their weekend to take care of me, u all are the best friends anyone cud have..huhuu..terharu jugak lagi.. Anyways..because of my sickness n everything else that happened in the hospital i finally noe why my teddy keep pushing me away, sigh~ ..breaking my heart when im already in pain physically..myb i deserve it..

Teddy,
U said u wanted to move on for a better life, so i said ok..i'll try to let u go. Then u came back wanting me back in ur arms..still i said ok eventhou the truth is my heart were in pieces..and then i met sumone who in the same situation..so we talked n we connected..when u found out and u wanted to leave me again, but i fight for u n asked for another chance to make tis relationship work. So u say yes..but i didnt realised my heart havent recover from wat u said before..myb i just love u too much to actly let u go..myb i needed u too much to let u go.. And then u told me that everything u said before is not 100% true..u cant live without me..ur parents didnt say exactly wat u told me..u just wanna push me away to test our love..all i cud think at the time is wat have i done to u that wasnt enough to show u how much i love u..to make u realized that i loved u with all my heart..?

Teddy,
Im sorry that im not the best for u..im sorry that im not what u expected me to be..im sorry that i cannnot take the REASON u gave me..im sorry that i felt betrayed for all your words..and im sorry that i cannot looked at u the same way as before..im sorry thing didnt worked as we planned..for i am alfraid that my heart wont recover if u push me away again, if u ever says anything that hurts again..

Teddy,
I hope in the future u'll find sumone who can love u more than i do..who can treat u the way u want them to and i hope u'll live happily.. How i feel right now has no meaning..thanks to understanding friends..thanks to the strength my family shows to me..i will eventually recover..i hope so.. So today im physically and emotionally weak..thanks to tis operation i've gone throu i got two weeks of medical leaves to recover both physically n emotionally. My physical will recover that fast but my heart will need more than two weeks..sigh~ at least by the time i have to work my heart is in a better condition than now.. Last word from me.. Just like ur fav song says .. Sometimes it last in love but sometimes it hurt instead..

Heart..pls be strong..love, pls find me someone who loves me..