true love..

true love..we often hear these words..most of us believed in it (men & women)..the question is where did we got this true love idea? does it really exist anyway? maybe it came from the movies we watch, books we read, frens maybe? but does it exist in this cruel world? i wonder..n sometimes doubt it. the truth is..i dunno..for real..i dunno.. but i do wish true love exist in this world, somehow. so that the world wont be such a harsh place..so that at least there's hope..

another interesting question wud me how the hell do we noe whether that person is the so called "the one"? i guess no matter wat u do, "the one" is hard to find..doesn't it? only the lucky one wud be able to b with their "the one".. am i delusional be believing that s0meday i'll find "the one"? hahaaa..u tell me..

call me delusional..call me insane..i'll hold on to this true love hope..wahahaa.. ;)

..inconsolable..

huney..
i missed u so much..
pls be back s0on..
im inconsolable when ur not around..

~Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all i ever wanted, it comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no.
I memorized the number
So why can't i make the call
Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility (ohh)~

fallin..

love..most of the time we heard peeps says "im falling in love with u.."
but we hardly heard anyone says "im falling out of love..with u"

my questios : is falling out of love possible? y? love dies??
well i have no idea..lol :p

i guess love..relationship is no easy business..things happens in between of everything..
so just imagine one day u wake up beside someone whom u loved ur whole life and suddenly all that u cud say is "i dont love u anymore"..demn! is it even possible?

RE: things i want to do after a break-up..

1. Lay down at the beach the whole day - DONE
2. Eat lots of lots of lots of ice cream - NOT YET
3. go bungee jumping - WHER TO FIND THIS THING??
4. workout at the gym 4 hours a day for whole month - STARTING FROM FEB!!
5. shout as loud as I can - DONE
6. go mountain climbing - NOT YET
7. try scuba diving – but I have to learn swimming 1st - I'LL SKIP THIS,AHAHA..
8. go backpack to Europe – haha..nice2 - ANYONE?LETS JOM??
9. drink oranges juice only the whole day - DONE
10. watch every movie at the cinema in 1 day - NOT YET..DEMN
11. lepaking with my bestfriends at chilli’s - AWIN..PJA..CIK EMA..NURUL..NALINS..LETS JOM!!
12. go clubbing - NOT YET..DEMN AGAIN
13. smoke the whole box of cigarettes in 1 hour - DONE!!
14. listen to every single love song I can find in my room - DONE
15. take my picture every 1 minutes for the whole day - TMROW LA..EHEH
16. lepaking alone at starbuck with coffee only - DONE
17. send a different sms to every phone number in my handphone - NOT YET..
18. go karaoke.. - TODAY!!
19. learn tae kwon do back..& try to get black belt - SKIPPING!
20. try surfing..hahaha - I LOIKE!! ANYONE WITH ME?

...please...[part2]

hurm..last nite i felt like i've disappeared..
felt like i've vanished..
felt like i finally found peace..
but somehow..i've made people around me worried..
[sorry u guys..didnt meant to do tat..]
i just need my alone time..
need time to think..
need time to accept..
need time to figure.. how i really feel..
and somehow i never feel alone..
i guess i can feel u guys around me..ahahaha..bole?

please let me heal by myself..
i wont be self destructed..promise u tat!

please let me fly away..
n when i come back i'll be better..

please dun leave my side..
coz ur the reason for my tomorrow..

x0x0

dear..

dear..
do u noe how my heart look like rite now?
half of it is already with u..
a part of it is in thousand pieces..
n im picking it back one by one..slowly
but dear..
if u throw away the part that have already in ur hand rite now
then i am lost..
i'll be broken entirely
i wont survive..
and now..
its all in ur hand..

[cintamu]

Cintamu,
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Selamanya

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Yang terlimpas, terbias matamu
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