true love..??

true love..does it really exist? i dunno..but i hope so..hehe..i'm sure most of us = women/men believe in true love. well, everybody have their very own version of true love which always end with happy ending right? will everyone have their happy ending? i wonder.. but when i looked around there's no such thing as happy ending. because eventhough u'd end up with the 1 person u wanna b with, there's always "something" happen in ur relationship after tat..its just how life is..or is it??

so wat do u call those who got to be with "the one"? i'll call them lucky, a very lucky person. for example, one of my fren end up marrying her high school sweet heart..but before tat she did go through hard time getting to know the hubby family and this very 'outgoing' fren of mine have to wear 'tudung' to tackle the hubby mom. my lucky fren..haha..God Bless both of u!

another questions is how wud u really noe u have found "the one"?from my own experiences, i'll say u'll never noe for sure..ahaha..bcos me, after a 6 years relationship..when i tot i knew everything bout my-x..it turn out to b the other way around..demn! so, is true love a gamble? u tell me..

and then what about the phrase people always said.."klu da jodoh x kemana" i think this quote came from a Malay movie isn't? do u really believe in 'jodoh'? dun ask me..i'm clueless..hahaa..

my real question is where does the idea true love came from? movies we watch? books we read? or from our fren? parents maybe? i dunno..for me i'll say its the movie fault..hehee...my example wud be "p/s-I love U"..huhu..nice..

Stupid Women Driver @ MRR2

i have this excellent story about a black viva driver name Nor Fazilah bt Ahmad Junid (i/c num - 810910-08-5694)..usually i dun really agree when people used to say women driver = stupid as i'm a women (not a bitch). so most of the time i wud ignore it..but not yesterday!! yesterday turn out to b the turning point as i also wud say from now on "women driver does sucks!!" not all but most of them really does..sigh~~

anyway the story started like this..me n my dear fren when for a lil shopping at nilai3.on our way back we were laughing n talk bout stuff..as we'r getting closer to the taman melati exit, my fren give signal to the left then i noticed a black viva car also wanted to take the taman melati exit, tat car almost hit us as the driver didnt notice us..stupid isnt it? u wanna take left u give signal n check ur side mirror lar shayang..da!! so my dear fren just giv this stupid black viva a honk..
if u familiar with the MRR2 taman melati exit u'll know this..there's a triffic light before u can take right turn, like the normal flyover lar..so my fren take the left lane & we'r so unfortunate as we didnt notice the black stupid viva is on our right.as the traffic light turn green my dear fren glide her car slowly to the right then suddently.."bumm!!" guess wat? tat fucking stupid drive hit us!! my first impression.."damn! she's fucking crazy"..so my fren stop the car n i quickly go out to check the car as my dear fren walk to this fucking crazy women car. u know wat is the 1st thing i noticed as i when out of the car? this fucking stupid bitch is talking to her phone without any handfree..wtf!

luckly there's just a small "kemek" on the my dear fren car, but the biggest mistake this bitch did is what she said to my dear fren..below is the real conversation as i heard it from my car:

my dear fren : hoi..reti bawak kete ke x ko neh?
x kan ko x nmpk sy jalan?
bitch : ape pulak puan yg da salah jalan.. <---da salah x nak ngaku tuh! my dear fren : eh ko neh..ko tgk tu semua org ke kanan mane ade org terus??!!
bitch : ala..puan tgk ler arrow jalan puan tu ke mane..terus kn??
(sambil berjalan tgk kete viva color itam dia, bukan nak tgk kete yg dia langgar..such a bitch)
my dear fren : oii..tgk ler arrow tu ke kanan ngn terus..so sukeati mak bapak aku ler aku nak
terus ke nak ke kanan. yg ko nyer jln tu arrow ke kanan apsal ko jln terus??!
ko lesen da berape thn?
bitch : 5 tahun ( dgn berlagak tuh)
my dear fren : ok xpe jom settle balai
bitch : ah..blah ar!
(terus masuk dalam kete viva thn 2008 bln march dia, ape ingat i xtau??huh!)
bitch : ala..x kena pon
leeya : ape hal lak x kena kak oii..kiteorg xde mase nak berenti lar klu x kena
(i ngn chill nyer masuk campur)
bitch : ah..blah ar!
(this bitch without any guild just drive away)

well, this bitch had truelly show me she a bitch so i knocked her window HARD!! kekekee..suit u well bitchy women..

anyway just for ur info bitchy women in black viva BJW 1599 u make a very big mistake..u knock a police officer car dear..so my dear fren call a police MPV car to find her car, so whenever the duty police officer notice her black viva she'll b taken to the nearest police station..hehee..plus today we already got ur full home address in CHERAS, ur i/c num and etc..etc..so if u got a FEW summons (i really meant a few only ya..) be ready..u never know if just maybe suddently u have warrant on ur name..hahaa (devil laugh)

i not fucking mad with this fucking bitch, all im saying is u can always say "im sorry kak, its my mistake..im not familiar with this area". and the most fucking worst answer u gonna get is an angry person yelling at u..plus u shud go n c wat happen to the other persons car ok?? but now since the way u acted as a fucking bitch..u gonna get a fucking summons and police officer st ur door (most probably, soon!)..hahaa.. so to all women driver...wats wrong with admitting tat its ur mistakes when it is ur mistakes??

DEAR FREN...

hey..been few weeks since my last post. im bz with stuff..fren's stufff n mine as well.
just finished watching Grey's Anatomy (season 5)..huhu..its sad n happy but mostly sad n romance..anyway, everybody shud watch it.want my copy?? Rm5 for 1 series..hahaa.

this is not actually my topic..i wanna talk bout anger. today im so fucking angry with sume1 who i still consider as my fren. im not proud of this fren of mine and im so fucking angry. so..the thing is u claim tat ur in love with some1. u wanna b with this some1 (who happens to be my fren as well, damn, its a small world), u ask this person to leave behind her fren to b with u (or its her decision, i dunno) and then out of nowhere now ur claiming u dun want her around..said she doesnt spend much time with u? she's too fucking bz with her job? so ur moving on..opsie..moving back to ur 'X' since she'll b able to spend time with u, to take care of u..

this earth had never move backward..so i believe, strongly, tat we shud b moving foward not backward. and dear fren listen to me..'antoo' or no 'antoo', ghost or no ghost, this wat happen this thing is stupid. she's been bz since u know her, so dun expect her to change..u accept her like tat before so live with it. dun complaint after u have promised to her to b together. . . u have been doing the same fucking thing over n over n over again.

its all not for me to judge..watever happens between the 2 of u is totally not my problem. but both of u are my fren & each time there's a problem u wud cum running and ask for advise, wud told me almost everything and hope tat i wud c it from where u c it. i do c it from ur view fren, but u never, i repeat, never listen or follow any of my advise nor others advices. u do it ur own way and u expect all of us to accecpt ur decision which when sumthing goes wrong again we'r the 1 who have to listen to everything?? but here's the thing..i'm fucking tired of all this!! so if u think this time i wud stand here n be strong for u, u'r WRONG..go find some1 who can because i CANT take any of this no more.

dear fren..one more thing, i'll stand for her here. i will try my very best to b here for her..n i am giving up on u..

takin' back my LOVE

Enrique:
Go ahead just leave,
can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things,
if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams,
'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt
You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so,
You already know I'm not attached to material
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love..
Ciara:
Yeah
What did I do but give love to you
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you
You think that you know (I do),
you've made yourself cold (Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me,
I'm your girlYou're out of control (So what?),
how could you let go (Oh yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material

Both:
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

Enrique:
So all this love I give you, take it away, (Unh, uh huh)
Ciara:
You think material's the reason I came, (Unh, uh huh)
Enrique:
If I had nothing would you want me to stay (Unh, uh huh)
Ciara:
You keep your money, take it all away

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
Ooh, my love...Ooh, my love

thing i want to do after a break-up..

1. Lay down at the beach the whole day
2. Eat lots of lots of lots of ice cream
3. go bungee jumping
4. workout at the gym 4 hours a day for whole month
5. shout as loud as I can
6. go mountain climbing
7. try scuba diving – but I have to learn swimming 1st
8. go backpack to Europe – haha..nice2
9. drink oranges juice only the whole day
10. watch every movie at the cinema in 1 day
11. lepaking with my bestfriends at chilli’s
12. go clubbing
13. smoke the whole box of cigarettes in 1 hour
14. listen to every single love song I can find in my room
15. take my picture every 1 minutes for the whole day
16. lepaking alone at starbuck with coffee only
17. send a different sms to every phone number in my handphone
18. go karaoke..
19. learn tae kwon do back..& try to get black belt
20. try surfing..hahaha

a women should understand another...

Halu…I didn’t write anything for weeks..been busy with almost everyday n weekends filled with programs & sometimes problems. Sigh!

Anyway..these few days I’ve been thinking about this women, no need name or we just call her Minachi..hehehe..so this Minachi somehow allowed herself to be the third person n a relationship, I wuz like “how the f**k this women allow herself to be in this position?”..maybe its easy for me to say as I’m not the 1 in her shoe, but try this “u are a women..how would u feel if u’re the 1 in this years time relationship & this 3rd person came?” how would u feel?? Sad..? Heart broken..? well, I believe this Minachi refuse to think. Statistically dear Minachi u wont be happy..Come on u don’t expect to be happily ever after when u “stole” him from someone else right..? Have u ever think of how he truly feel? Just maybe he’s still very much deep in love with his first girlfriend?
Actually what I wanted to say is not what this Minachi have done. But what we, all women, should :

1. We should have a man that suits us, not someone that suits others.
2. We should have his whole heart, not partly.
3. We should be able to feel free to trust him. Would u feel that way if u know he have some else in his heart?
4. We should have him for ourselves ONLY! (Well I’m not gonna share My B).

My list will get longer n longer but there’s no way to see in the future where we gonna stand. In between a relationship or in a relationship with someone in between..still if its me..if I ever be in this Minachi position I would NEVER ever used “shaman way” or “bomoh” way (voodoo) to have him. I would rather tell him to choose for himself, let the best women wins his whole heart rather than have a part of him ONLY..sigh!
But that just me..people cope in their own way. Seriously Minachi..do u think u’ll be happy? After what u have done..i doubt it. I always believe in “balasan Tuhan” is 10times greater than what the sufferer felt. So, just imagine how many times heart broken u’re going to be if u broke a heart..
A women should be able to understand another..thats what my best friend told me. Shayang..i don’t believe in those words anymore. Unless u add “…if only that women would think positively & not decide using her ‘kepala lutut’ a.k.a patella..” har..har..har..

Ghost story...

Hurm..i didn’t update my blog for a week, hahaa..very lazy lar. And to be honest I don’t have idea to write, sigh**..
So, today I have these idea..let me tell u a couple of ghost story..well actually I wanted to write these for quite some time already..but since I’ve been alone for 2weeks,I’m scared lah!! Hehee..so, here’s the first story…

Well this story was told by a friend of a friend of mine (got it?) ..we’re studying in a boarding school, so ghost story sometimes fills those boring days. This “thing” happened one night during the SPM examination time, a few friends were studying till very late at night. They were 5 of them, then one by one of them fall asleep..then there’s only Ani (not a real name) & Bibah (also not a real name). Ani then started to feel very sleepy and she looked at her watch, its already 2am. So she tell Bibah that she’s going to the toilet (to shishi & wash her face), Biah replied “u go ahead, I keep my book first.” So Ani went to the toilet by herself..after a few minutes Bibah went there and on her way she felt that something wasn’t right plus the hair on her neck started to raise. Bibah walked faster to the toilet..she saw Ani at the sink so she went straight to shishi. When she came out Ani still at the sink, so she ask “Ani, what are u doing? Faster lah, I’m sleepy” when Ani turned around Bibah couldn’t say a word & she fainted. The next day a friend woke her up, she slept on the toilet floor. Bibah ask for Ani..when Ani come to talk to her she ask Ani “where did u go last night, did u when to the toilet?”Ani said “yelah, but u didn’t come so I when to bed first lar”. Then Bibah told her the whole story..the person, who she thought ‘Ani’ turned and she was brushing her teeth using a razor knife, blood coming out of her torn mouth..after what happened both of them never stay up to study anymore.

The second story begin (still) in a bording school toilet..actually at the same school lar, hehee..it was Saturday night so everybody were watching a movie at the tv room downstairs. There’s only a few girls chatting and telling ghost story..Nana (not the real person name) wanted to go to the toilet,so she ask Awin (haha..) to accompany her but Awin was busy talking to her boyfriend on the phone. Nana decide to go alone anyway it just around the corner. So she went shishi.. suddenly she heard a kid voice counting..”satu, tak ade…dua tak ade…tiga pon tak ade…” and the counting continue. Nana was inside the last toilet, she quickly when out but she saw no one..she run out of the toilet and asked Awin “hey, did u see a little girl when in?” Awin replied “no, who’s kid anyway??” Nana had never when inside that toilet alone ever again.

So..scary isn’t it?
Huhuu..boarding school = damn scary!!