Monday, July 30, 2012

Wish list

Gonna b 27 y.o this year..so here are my wish list!


1. Dinner n lepaking with my bff

2. Vacatioooonnnnnn with my...hehee..beaches

3. T-race instead i got t-touch, lalalalalaa

4. Salomon shoe

5. Head rest for baby neo ensom..

6. PullnBear - orange! Orange! Orange!

7. 1pint peanut butter baskinR..yummy,tp nt moks2 how? Ooooowwhh..nak jgk!

8. Iced caramel macchiato!

9. You Coupon - a ticket where i can use it..if i need u, i just use the ticket n u have to b here for me..no matter wat time, wat date, wat situation..bole? Hahahaa...

10. TT - is it too much to ask for? Hikhikhik...

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Dessertt

Today im cooking dessert again..

Yeay..!

Pengat pisang..

I never, i repeat, never cook tis myself

Mama or mumy used to cook for me..

Hehee...

Anyway, i loike it!

Lalalala..gumuk la

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Dreams

These days i keep on having the same dreams..

Over and over again..

And its not u..

Which is painful..

Im not ready to loose u..

Not now..not ever..

So i pray everyday, everynite..

If we not meant to b..

I wish u'll b happy..

....


P/s- heart pls b strong..

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Law of attraction

Tonite i feel like discussing sumthing i've been holding back for sumtimes..hehe..been busy but these Blessed month Ramadhan i'm quite free..i loike it!

Anyway the topic is law of attraction..wat actually atrract us to another person?some say its a mystery, well its actually just common sense which sumhow we're too overwhelmed by our own feeling we lost our sense (or soo..i belive, anyway tis is my blog so it doesnt matter..hehe)

Everyone have a list of characteristic of sumone we like..tats y sumhow we end up with a person with the same or a few same character all the time. For example im always attracted to sumone taller than me with chinese look face. Myb tats included in my subconsciuos list..we actually cud figure out wat is in our list. But then tat is the first part only..the physical appearance. Tall, short, blond, cute, sexy, 6pac..lol..n the list goes...

The second part is the personality..bubbly, independent, needy,control freak, quite..this is where the attraction goes more intense..we got closer to the "attraction" and then comes the part where we start knowing more about each other. Wat we like, for example i love playing games on my ipad..hehe..n sumone might find tat interesting or not..lol..we attracted to someone who loves to read because we ourself didnt have time to do tat. Its usually an act tat compensate us..make us feel complete. For me i noe im attracted to sumone who love to looked for information, do research..just because i cant..hehe..And most of the time this is the time where wesaid.."owh, i loike tat too"..admitting the same interest making the attraction grows stronger..

But of course the attraction only get stronger when u spend more time nourishing it..and some researcher says it took 3 years for us to b remaining in this state..the attraction state. After 3 years (might be lessssss) tats the time where we started to lost interest..lost the attraction. This is where we started to hear 'Goodbyes'..

So here come the big question..how to keep the attraction alive? Well, if u google it u'll find a lot of advice on doing new things together, finding new experiences..all and all it takes two to tango..u'll first need the "attraction" to dance with u..hehe..i'll suggest nothing since im learning the art myself..but all and all SPEND MORE TIME TOGETHER..tats wats important..to me i guess..

P/s- nites2..hugs n kisses





Sunday, July 22, 2012

Same..

Its been a while since my last post..been busy..everywhere..

Topic of the day..when u speak the same language with ur partner.

I came accross tis topic when I watch a couple talk the other day n they keep finishing each other sentences. Its like they understand each other, have a secret way of communicating..they can read each other mind. It was sweet, cute and make jelous of them.

My problem with relationship..or the way i believe it was the main problem was communication. We somehow tend to assume too much without discussing the matter..we assume and decide, then one day realized we assume wrong..

How do we communicate well when we hide all our feeling?when we dont speak up nor open up to the other person? Well, it is essential to be able to talk about anythin and everythin to one person u feel comfortable with..

Stop asssuming..start communicating..

p/s- lets move on..stop wasting time ;)

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Lirik Lagu Shila Amzah – Déjà Vu (Lagu Tema Filem Aku, Kau & Dia )



Aku bukan lemah tanpa cinta
Hanya tidak mampu sendiri tanpanya
Biarkan aku menangis kerna derita

Dia hadir mengubatkan rindu
Mengajarkan aku erti cinta
Namun semua tidak seindah ku sangka

( Chorus )
Dialah yang aku inginkan
Dia cinta yang kudambakan
Namun semua hanya tinggal mimpi
Terpisahnya cinta

Aku harus melupakannya
Aku harus memadam rasa
Namun hati tidak pernah mampu
Melepas kau pergi

( Ulang chorus )

Setelah sedar dari mimpi
Harus ku terus hidup tanpamu
Kini ku pasrah segalanya
Tentang cinta

Lagu : Sharon Paul
Lirik : Imillya Irwani

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Different

Life can change a person into sumthin or sumonelse..true enough

We can looked at life from various perspective & dependin on which view ur seeing ur life can in fact change u..

For example if i looked at life as a coward then i might sees life as frightening, terrible and scary

Whereas if i took a different stand and b brave i might sees life as promising, colourful n joyful..

Its all about where u put ur feet n wat u decide wat u want..

Today i know i shud take a stand..i shud put my feet on the ground that i want..

But all i cud think of was the lyric from this song:

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall

I realize im not brave enough..not yet..wud i ever b brave? I myself wonder..but then the song goes:

But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer..

I know im looking at u everytime i needed the strength..& i guess its not impossible to take a lil step..one at a time..as long as we'll end up where we wanna be right? I know where i wanna b..i hope u too know where u wanna b.. :)

P/s - Im holding on my 'sumday' & if tis doesn't worked out i believe we're meant for sumthin better..xoxo


Friday, July 6, 2012

things i wanna do with u..




  1. Lie all day in bed
  2. Sit on the beach n say nothing
  3. Hold ur hand all day
  4. Eat ice cream together (HagenDazz - pergh, xnak mahal lak kn? ahaha..anykind of ice cream will do lorh..lol)
  5. Play paintball together..hehe..
  6. Go hiking anywhere..haven't done tis with anyone yet actually
  7. or one more thing i wanna do with U is ice skating..ahahah..too scared to try but of U were there i'll b ok..
  8. Watch u do ur work all day
  9. ...do nothing n look at each other
  10. watch sunrise & sunset together..

These are a few thing i wanna do with U..but since i haven't got any U yet i'll keep my list goin on & on & on..

till then...

p/s - sleepy n mild headache..need stronger drugs! Lol..



Majnun

Today i got nothing to say so how bout a song instead?

Like this song..

Majnun-Hazama

Di puncak bukit ku bina kubu
Beratapkan dedaun rimba
Melihat penjara kamarmu dari jauh
Bermulai air mata hancur luluh hatiku

Di puncak bukit kukenang semula
Hari kita mesra melakar nama
Saat pertama bibirku melontarkan namamu
Terpukau matamu gila kau buatku

Hanya namamu nyanyian angin menjadi udara
Hanya namamu bagai darah mengalir ke jantung
Kerana kamu aku hilang
Aku hilang akal terjadi gila, gila

Mereka ketawa melihat aku membawa diri ke sini
Namun malam ini saja yang dapat di erti
Kini cuma burung-burung mendengar laguku
Semua impian dan harapan terkubur

Bila ku kenang semula
Berita diterima teriak namanya
Hari tanganmu dijanjikan padaku
Pastinya semakin gila kau buatku

Hanya namamu nyanyian angin menjadi udara
Hanya namamu bagai darah mengalir ke jantung
Kerana kamu aku hilang
Aku hilang akal terjadi gila, gila
Apalah dosaku yang dimakan waktu
Di halangi dari mendampingimu
Hingga masa engkau hulurkan nyawa
Menyebut namaku dinafas terakhir

Hanya namamu nyanyian angin mnjadi udara
Hanya namamu bagai darah mengalir ke jantung
Kerana kamu aku hilang, aku hilang akal
Sayangku Laila Laila Laila Laila

Kerana kamu aku hilang
Aku hilang akal terjadi gila, gila
Biar terdampar ku tidur disebelahmu untuk sementara
Menanti bungaku bangun dari pusara


P/s- gila = is a common condition when ur in love, its the moment u stop thinkin using ur brain n started to use ur heart instead..lol!

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Headache

..my head hurts..sigh!

Wats wrong..i wonder..

Really needed a hug..

or sumone who actually cares..

Hikhikhik..i guess tis is the down side of being alone..

Well tonite i wanna quote sumthin from Marilyn Monroe:


“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
― Marilyn Monroe

So, im gonna off for noww..finding drug n sleep..

P/s - show me, dun tell me..words are just words..

Reward

Morn peeps..

Topic of the day, how do u reward yourself?
Hurm..me, i used to reward myself with good food..hehe..tats how i turn of to be 'tebal' like tis..i used to spend money for places like Chillies', Merche', Tony Romas..but now i realized y should i spend money for food when i wanted to loose weight (for Awien's wedding)???

Hehe..the truth is i saw sumthing SUPER DUPER NICE this eve..Tissot T-race! Caught my eyes..heart skips a beat..saliva dripping..hehe..<-- tis is how i imagine myself at tat time. But then i recall tat i have OTHER importance commitment coz ramadhan is coming then raya then i think i need to buy sumthin for my mom (phone & washin machine), so i walked away from my lovely Tissot shop..huaaaaaahuaaaahuaaa...(nak tisssottttttt....!)

So i said to my self, be patient dear heart..kumpul duit dulu then i will reward myself with this if i cud finish my degree @3.5 cgpa..huhuuu..so still got time to save sum money. and i did asked sumone to reward me with this nice thing, hehe..pow!

Moral of the story...hurmm..ntah ape tah,..hurm..ha, Once a while we need to reward ourself..we sometimes worked too hard n think about peeps around us more than ourself n we forgot that in the end peeps cant make us happy when we r not happy with ourself..so, lets reward ourself n live happily ever after? Ahaha..reward is motivation for me,tat its..

Lets go sholat subuh..n have a great day peeps!

P/s- Many wud belive in lies bcos the truth requires changes..heart,please b strong, please change.....

Monday, July 2, 2012

An affirmation of letting go

..this is sumthing i read tis morn, its kinda suits the situation..like it..so myb tis cud inspire u guys too..sumhow i feel inspired..lol..

I am willing to trust. I know that to the degree I am willing to give up my search for a healthy love relationship, I can have it. I know I can have whatever I am ready and willing to receive. Individual receptivity is everything. Without it, nothing changes. With it, all things are possible. I no longer insist upon my choice.

I know that the only thing I lose when I let go of something I am afraid to live without is the fear itself. I am stronger than anything that frightens me!

I let go of the past, and I am free to think clearly and positively in the present. I am not my past.

Letting go is the natural release which always follows the realization that holding on is an energy drain and it hurts. Letting go happens effortlessly when there is no other choice. Letting go does not mean giving up.

Letting go is a journey that never ends. It only begins — over and over again — each time I can glimpse something higher than my own painful certainty over who I think I am. There is always something higher; a life beyond the limits of my present sight.

To see what is farther I must be willing to lift my eyes from their present point of focus. Release always follows revelation and real revelation is always a glimpse of something that was only just out of sight.

I know that stress in my love relationship exists because I insist! What I resist, it persists. I am tied to whatever I avoid.

It is a mistaken belief that I must push my love relationship in the direction I choose that keeps me in a strained and unhappy relationship with it. Reality has its own effortless course, and I can either embrace its way or struggle endlessly with mine.

I do not need power to flow.

I let go of that part of myself that is certain it is better to suffer and feel like someone than it is to just let go and quietly be no one. I give birth to a new me that never has to hold on to anything because it is already everything.

I dare to walk away from all of the familiar but useless mental and emotional relationships that give me a temporary but unsatisfactory sense of self. My true identity is calling me and to hear it I must be willing to endure, for as long as necessary, the fear of self-uncertainty.

This form of seeming self-abandonment eventually turns into my greatest pleasure as it becomes increasingly evident that the only thing certain about fear is that it will always compromise me. When it comes to who I really am, there is no compromise.

Let go of the past. The past is yesterday. It is irretrievable. When you relate to the past, you relate to no one or any thing. You are literally talking to yourself. No one else is listening. You have already heard all you have to say about that, so, let go.

It is certifiable insanity to conjure up your own reality based on the past and relate to it, rather than to relate to the present which is the only reality.

I say goodbye to the past and hello to the present.

I am enthusiastic about who I am becoming! I know that no one sincerely asks for a new life until they are thoroughly dissatisfied with the old one. I am and I let go. When I allow myself to let go of what is old, I stay true to what is new.

This is it!

I live in the present. I never let the past dictate the direction of the present moment. I give my best to my endeavors.

What lies ahead for me can only be good.

True peace and harmony are a part of who I am.

I have come to the realization that what is possible for me to become only truly changes when I am willing to see what is impossible for me to continue being.

P/s-“No one can promise they’ll never hurt you because at one time or another, it will happen. The real promise is if the time you spend together will be worth the pain in the end.” - nite2, mau titon sudey..




July..!

Here comes july..huhu..time had passed so fast ey?

Today im picking up my life slowly..learning to b strong just for me.
So im picking up pieces of me..one by one..little my little..in the search to b whole again..

I've never been alone for almost 8 years..wallawey..but sumhow rite now this just feel right..i feel calm..i feel alone..huhu..

Life must go on..if i wanna b happy i gotta live my life today..

So i gotta set a new goals..i dun wanna b lost again. I wanna be me..just me..
The focus rite now is me, myself n i..

New goals..here we go:
1. Finnish my studies in 3sems..
2. Find new environment - should i move out from s.alam or should i find another job??hurm..still thinkin
3. New workout plan..this actly can b very very interesting..LOL
4. Play more..hockey, paintball (new love..hehe..loike!)
5. Buy houz..adoi been delayin this thing for a year now, come on leeya focus!
6. Ooo..almost forgot i thing..t-touch! Hehe..gambatte, kumpul duit!

Enough till tis 6 thing..cant focus on too many thing at once kn..so let the game begin again..

P/s - Starting again ..is a prove that i am not scared anymore, that i am better..come wat ever may, i'll b standing tall alone!